It's all about believing,

Right, as the title says.. "it's all about believing". You know what I think of that..bull. This blog probably isn't gonna matter to me later on but who am I to know. If you read my last blog, I wasn't a very happy camper. I just don't know how anything is possible any more. I try so hard to try and make out the meaning of life when what I really should be doing is taking life one step at a time. I mean who cares what's gonna happen tomorrow if you don't know whats going to happen in the next hour. That's all it is. Today, I thought about moving. You know, like leaving this small rock called Hawaii to, what do you call it... "BIGGER AND BETTER" things. RIGHT... but I thought, why am I such in a rush to get out of here?! I really need to just start chilling out and instead of piling myself in loads of work to distract myself from all the other things in life that don't plan out right I should just RELAX! AH, whatever.... I'm seriously starting to loose my mind.. so i'm out.

Someday Soon...

I'm not sure if i've totally figured what I feel right now or what  I'm going through but what I'm feeling isn't normal. You know that feeling of emptiness. I can't quite make it out but my life is at the point where i've just stopped. If life was a race, i've stopped somewhere in the middle and just don't have the hope or faith to even believe that I can start moving again. I'm not depressed, I just know that things haven't been the same. Obviously there has been many changes in what's been going on lately but by now I would have thought that I'd be back to slowly pacing forward. But I'm not. It's hard to tell what I'm actually feeling but it doesn't feel very good. The choices I seem to be making with the way life has changed doesn't seem to be right at all. I feel as if though I'm taking 3 steps forward but 2 steps back. Maybe it'll go away but then again this could take more than just waiting until my life get back on track. But one things for sure,  I need to start reaching the state of normal soon...really soon.