wow.

i never realized that i vented so much in the last post! bahahahaa, anyway, what i meant to say is that i'm gonna go with the flow. no more stressing out..it's summer!

I don't know.

I've come to realize that life is not consistent. Nice to me today but hate me tomorrow. I hate it. I'm so aggravated, confused, thankful, happy, awkward, irritated, and sad right now. How is that possible? IDK! But I am.

First, the one person that I talk to when I get into car to vent and talk about things that I can't really talk about naturally to other people isn't here. I miss my dad so much that it hurts every time I think about it. Yeah, it's 4 months but still. It sucks.

Second, I just can't stand it anymore. I don't get you. Actually, I think what scares me is that because I'm starting to really get to know you more and more it sucks. How can one handle? I'm trying so hard but it's just difficult keeping up. Too much, I hate the depressed, melancholy vibe that exists in you sometimes and I get so aggravated cause It's hard to figure you out. We have fun most of the times and I'm very proud of you and I wish that you could see how talented and amazing you really are. I wish that the positive out look that I have on life could be given to you. I try really hard to show and be a positive influence on you but if it's being ignored or just forgotten, forget it. I'm not gonna waste my energy anymore. Let me know when you start to realize how much you should be proud of yourself then I'll continue confiding in you but other than that...I just really don't know what to do anymore. It hurts, it really does. But it's ok, I'll be here for you whenever you need me but if you don't believe in yourself as much as I do, fine.

Bleh, sorry. Blogs=Venting.

Niki

I give myself, very good advice...

...but I very seldom follow it.

Fancy running into me here, I haven't written, well typed a blog in a while! So, IM BACK! With probably a bagillion things to talk about. I was looking back at the last time I posted a blog it was in April! WOW! Ok, so since then...

The "Once On This Island" experience was over. BOOOOOOO! It took me a while to get over but I did. It was the best show I was ever in being that I was only in that show and High School Musical at the time. Hahaha! Anyway, it was super fun! I bonded and closer to a bunch of people and I'm glad I dropped "Into The Woods" for it :-) BAHAHAHHAAHAAHA! Opps, I don't think I was suppose to say that. Oh well! I hope I get a copy of the DVD for this show soon cause I really want to watch it.

Then Spotlight came up. Spotlight...oh spotlight. I haven't been in a competition is AGES! and being apart of that one was SUUUPPPER FUUN! ALthough I got 5th place overall I got other awards so it don't matter! I would love to do it again! During that time I also learned to put on my own make-up! WOOP! OK, So i thought make-up used to be stupid but AGH! Why is it so much fun to put one?! BAHAHAHAHAHA!

After spotlight came our tech week of Alice In Wonderland. AH! I CAN'T BELIEVE TODAY WAS OUR LAST SHOW ): It was so sad. Not only was it the last show it was the last show I was going to do with Sydney! I know I just met her but I seem like if she were to stay longer we would have been really good friends. ): UGH!

Well, now that all the CRAZINESS is over... I can officially say that SUMMER has started! GOODBYE BEING A STUPID FRESHMAN, and HELLO SOPHOMORE year! I still don't know what school I'm going to next year but whatever I choose should be pretty fun! :) Bleh, this was such a vague blog but whatever! I'll be back since its the summer time!!!!! WOO!

PEAACCCCEEE!