It's all about believing,

Right, as the title says.. "it's all about believing". You know what I think of that..bull. This blog probably isn't gonna matter to me later on but who am I to know. If you read my last blog, I wasn't a very happy camper. I just don't know how anything is possible any more. I try so hard to try and make out the meaning of life when what I really should be doing is taking life one step at a time. I mean who cares what's gonna happen tomorrow if you don't know whats going to happen in the next hour. That's all it is. Today, I thought about moving. You know, like leaving this small rock called Hawaii to, what do you call it... "BIGGER AND BETTER" things. RIGHT... but I thought, why am I such in a rush to get out of here?! I really need to just start chilling out and instead of piling myself in loads of work to distract myself from all the other things in life that don't plan out right I should just RELAX! AH, whatever.... I'm seriously starting to loose my mind.. so i'm out.

Someday Soon...

I'm not sure if i've totally figured what I feel right now or what  I'm going through but what I'm feeling isn't normal. You know that feeling of emptiness. I can't quite make it out but my life is at the point where i've just stopped. If life was a race, i've stopped somewhere in the middle and just don't have the hope or faith to even believe that I can start moving again. I'm not depressed, I just know that things haven't been the same. Obviously there has been many changes in what's been going on lately but by now I would have thought that I'd be back to slowly pacing forward. But I'm not. It's hard to tell what I'm actually feeling but it doesn't feel very good. The choices I seem to be making with the way life has changed doesn't seem to be right at all. I feel as if though I'm taking 3 steps forward but 2 steps back. Maybe it'll go away but then again this could take more than just waiting until my life get back on track. But one things for sure,  I need to start reaching the state of normal soon...really soon.

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I can't title this blog because what we've been through theses past years can't be summed up in a title nor do I think I can sum it up in a blog either. It's hard to appreciate something until it's gone & I've never appreciated someone as much as I appreciate. We meet new people along the way but you're someone I don't think I'll ever forget. You are the meaning of what a "best friend" actually is. If you know me well enough, I don't like calling people "best friend". You were are way more than that more than a sister. I don't know what to call you but you're one of the most amazing people I've met in my entire lifetime. Almost every verb in the english dictionary I can say we've been through. We've laughed, smiled, cried, hated, loved, slapped, slept, "illusion" and so much more. I honestly don't know where and how I will survive in school or in anything in life without you here on the same island but I know that I can depend on you to be always support me and remember me just liked you did when you were here. Thank you for everything and this short tiny blog isn't even a tenth of how I feel about you ): I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH...

No Homo,

Niki Aduas**

It's Been A While!

Hello blogspot and all you follower's! It's been a while since I've updated this thing! Anyway, so many things have happened and changed since the last post. Obviously, it's a NEW year and Christmas is way long gone! Um, I got my phone stolen at a christmas social (so much for the season of giving), I haven't been to school for almost a month now, it's only a matter of time until Victoria is headed off to Italia, so BONJOUR ITALY, ALOHA HAWAII, and I recently found out that during the summer I will be attending "School Of Pop" In California :D 

So over the break I have experienced many ups and downs, here's a re-cap:

-Sleep over Victoria's House w/ Mon & Pua

-Went to Bucca Di Peppo

-Lost memory stick and found memory stick

-Went to a holiday social

-LOST MY CELL PHONE! 

-Went to a cast party at a house that should be in a magazine!

-Jasmin sleeps over

-Go to the beach with the family because Jess was home

-CHRISTMAS

-Mommy went after christmas shopping for me

-Had rehearsals

-Had a power outage

-Made a video about it

-NEW YEARS

-Sleepover

-Performed at Ige's

-Went to wrestling tournament

-Pool Party

-Had a meeting for e-cyber

-Had a phone interview

-Sleepover with Jas

-Went bowling

-Saw over 10 movies with Jasmin

-Jess's going away party

-Played a song on piano

-Went to another cast party that was SUPER AWESOME! 

-Sleepover at jas's house

-saw bride wars

-GO BACK TO SCHOOL! UGH!

Close, Closer, Closure

Eleven. Seventeen. Eleven, being the number of day's till christmas and seventeen being of the number of day's left in the year. It's amazing how fast everything went. As we close up the New Year I just want to say that It's been a great one. I don't think anything could have made it any better. There some things that didn't go my way but hey, it shouldn't matter now. A new leaf is about to turn & I really can't wait (: Life has taken me by so many surprises and I am grateful for every single one of them.

This time of the year, it's coming closer to the deadline to finish last year resolutions & the funny thing is, I don't remember a single one of them. ;D!! So, let talk about some of the ones I'm setting for myself this year: 

To be more "Legal" (if you know what I mean)

Focus on career goals

Become more "held together" 

Continue being a part of musicals

Accomplish some of the things on my Bucket List

All A's @ least once

Organization & Cleanliness 

Keep strong bonds with my family & friends

 

I think that's all for now. 

Anyway gonna wrap it up here so I can study for my exams tomorrow ,

Peace&Love<3 

Niki Elle